About a girl...

The first time he saw her, the first thing that comes to mind is that she bears the resemblance of Hillary Duff. It was probably because of her slightly wavy hair and the looks. She seems to have the aura, something which differentiates herself with any other girls.

One thing about both of them is they love dogs and they talked about it. He used to tell her about he's dog, telling her how intelligent is he's dog and even though her dog is not as intelligent as he's dog he still enjoys listening to her.

She was the one that introduced to him the word 'plushie' which is a newword to him. This word can't even be found in the Cambridge dictionary. Nevertheless when the word plushie is mentioned it will only make him reminisce about one thing.

She showed to him some plushie, telling him how nice it is and how much she wanted it. He would say 'no problem' and laugh about it. Although he never actually get her any plushie, he could still get it for her one fine day.

She claims that she can make a plushie but he always have doubts about it. Though he still hopes that she will make one for him.

They used to trade songs. Introducing new songs to each other. At times she would ask him to find some songs for her and he would happily do so.

It was during Christmas, when they exchanged gifts. Although it was not the best ever gift he ever received, more importantly was the sincerity, efforts put into it and the person that gave the gift.

Times has changed, she changed, things were not like how it used to be.....

Let'z Waltz....

Started the day having to wake up at 9am just to attend a 10am class. Man... these days to wake up at 9am is like getting tougher. Main reason - sleeping time changed a bit, slightly more used to sleeping after 2am. Previously, used to sleep around 1 am or 1 am ++. Classes were pretty much casual, ntg much but i have one lecturer which i think is quite good. Somehow i seem to understand most of the things that he taught.

Later in the evening, it's dance class as usual. This week is quite interesting cuz we're learning a new dance --- yeh babe u guessed it ---> Waltz. The only problem during the class is my partner could not make it or kononnya 'could' not make it. Ish..wanna dump her adi ler.. adi ponteng class two times already so far. Most of the time i had to sit out and watch those with partners to dance. Somehow this week the female species seems to be endangered, so there's overpopulation of guys. Anyway this week learned the basics of Waltz.. i think it's quite chun but at the same time it's quite hard especially when moving around. I think the harder part was the partner tho. First of all i dun haf a partner for the week. Then since there's other guys w/o partner as well so we had to rotate. I felt a bit weird cuz there's this guy n girl who were dancing together, if i'm not mistaken, judging by their distance and all, i think they are couples. So since we were asked to rotate, it was awkward for me to be dancing with the gurl with the bf (if i'm not mistaken) having to just watch. Quite pressuring also, cuz later kena pukul.... lolz
Anyway it's nice to be learning new dance. I think this waltz is more to footwork unlike salsa which involves a lot of body movements as well and it's quite T O U G H , trust me.

After came back from dance class i actually downloaded the movie Shall We Dance starrting Richard Gere n JLO. Still high from dance class, i started to watch the movie and i thought their dance was BRILLIANT. Some more it was right after the class and wat they are doin is similar to wat i did juz now and i was like WOW. But of cuz their moves were more complicated. I would recommend this movie if u do like to watch dance. They have a lot of variety as well. Before i started to learn how to dance, i neva take note on how people dance. Now i'm more aware of the footworks. It's niceeeeee man. If you wanna watch the movie can alwiz ask from me *wink wink* Din know Richard Gere can dance so well , JLO obviously can dance every1 kknows dat shakin da booty.. yeh babeh~! After watchin the movie, it really does make u feel like dancin'

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph and
I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

'Cause I'm broken
when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel like I am strong enough

'Cause I'm broken
when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right
when you're gone away

You've gone away,
you don't feel me here, anymore
The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away

There's so much left to learn,
and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

Seether - Broken

Feelin Good..

Removed my leg bandage on Tuesday night and i felt ok at that time. Today it's already Thursday and it feels ok but then i still can't really do any exercise yet. Think i'm gonna leave it for extra few days. Hopefully this weekend i can already start some warm-ups stretching.

For this past few weeks i've neva felt so free at all. Not having to go Karate training for 2 weeks in a row, i felt like i'm so much more free. Never ponteng training for 2 times consecutively throughout this years, this is the first time => I guess it's good in a way , at least i get to take a break and relax. But i do kinda miss the trainings. Hopefully next week i can return to action
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X-rayed

There goes the weekends and it's already week 7 of the semester. Last weekend i went to Putrajaya Hospital for my x-ray test after getting my recommendation letter from the MMU Medical clininc. I was afraid if there's any fracture or crack to the bone. So on, friday thanks to the help of my buddy duncan, he fetched me for check up. The worst case i was expecting was my leg kena cement and plastered. Imagine if my leg had to be plastered, i haf no idea how am i gonna drag my leg to lecture class. I would hate to be in the spotlight especially in sucha way.

So as soon as i reached the hospital , thank god i didnt have to wait long, there aren't many people. So after waiting for a short while i was asked to go to the ER room. I showed to them where the pain was and i was led to the x-ray room. As soon as i came walked back fromt he x-ray room, the results were already out in PC. The hospital is very new so the facilities are kinda advanced compared to most hospitals in M'sia i think. So, the nurse told me the good news that there was no crack , no fracture watsoever. So it's quite a relief. She told me that it could be ligamen damage or the tissue around it. I was told that it will take a while to heal. Man, i guess i haf no choice but to take a break from all acitivities... In other words no Karate , no joggin , no futsal , salsa :((((((((((((((((((((((((((

So the nurse asked some fella to bandage my leg and gave me some painkiller. I didnt know that painkiller means injection right up the ass... man although not literally but i think u know wat i mean. After that my leg was bandaged. It's essential that it is bandaged to prevent my foot from bending too much or to limit it's movement. I've been having sleepless nights before that cuz when i was sleeping my foot moved , it hurts so much that it woke me up constantly during the night. And when it moves too much, i think it prevents it from healing. I still think that my injury is not because of the tourney, probably it's more to wat i did after that. Probably i didnt gave my leg enough rest i guess....

So after the painkiller and the bandage i was ready to go. Then my right pelvis was like killing me. I started to feel the feeling of the injection. It didnt hurt at all during the process but after a while, i was really having problem on walking. It sort of hurts more than my leg and i have problem walking cuz of it rather den cuz of my leg. Even in the car , during cornering i can feel it right to the BONE.... man i dun know how come the injection feels so bad after that, it's not like it's my first time having injection...but somehow this one feels different.

I guess i'll leave my leg bandaged for this few days till i feel that it doesnt hurt anymore when i bend my foot.

Fearless

One of the most eagerly anticipated movie for me this year is Fearless of cuz. Didn't had the chance to catch it on cinema so i had to wait for some kind fella to share it in the intranet. I waited and waited and it finally came. There were ppl sharing it earlier..but it was cinema version but i only wanna watch the dvd ripped version. So finally after waiting since cny i finally get to watch it on my beloved pc.

Personally i think it was a great movie, really enjoyed it. It's kinda enlightening to a certain extend. To me 'humility' is the theme of the story. I think the reason why Jet Li did so well in the Hua Yuan Jia role is because that is the way he is in person. Obviously not the earlier self-centered Hua Yuan Jia but the one who has gone through humility. When ur at that level, definately u have nothing to prove. Able to walk tall and accept everything that comes ur way. That really reminds me of wat my master used to say. So it's kinda meaningful to think of it.... I believe most ppl who likes martial arts or rather people who understands the real meaning of martial arts will enjoy this movie. Well i'm not gonna talk bout ' yeh so' but something which i've learned recently , martial arts is not about fighting , nopez it's not bout the art of it also but it's about PEACE & FREEDOM.

For me martial arts is something which is very much related to our way of life. Unfortunately it's sad to see that there's a lot of ppl who learns martial arts but they just seem to lack the spirit, determination or probably understanding. I think most ppl dun try to understand it or most probably they dun haf a master who truly understands martial arts to guide them. Most masters nowadays concentrate more on the fitness part of it or the sporst part of it neglecting the real meaning of martial arts.
Besides that, most people today practise martial arts today are focused more to achievement oriented. To some people black belt is like everything. Some of them make it as if black belt are world beaters. Probably it's cuz of the way the society look so highly of black belts.
For instance, frequently ask question when people know that ur involve in martial arts.

Are you black belt?
If your answer is no, then physciologically people tend to have the thought that's ur still just a small fry.

But if ur answer is yes, then the reaction will be huge, it'll be as if ur world beater, can be a part time assasin adi or watever.

It's seriously laughable to think of it. As for me i don't like to judge people that way. Even if a person is wearing black belt that will not be enough for me to respect the person. The person has to earn the respect and vice versa. That is how mutual respect works for me. For me the key is action speak louder than words. I am really glad that i am able to learn from my current master, Shihan Jimmy. I really think he's one of the best all-rounder around today. It amazes me that why he so low-profile when there are not so good masters manage to get into the media. But then again i respect wat he's doing and i think he's one of those who already reached the level , when ur dat good u just have ntg to prove, and that's when ur fearless able to walk tall.

To be a great martial artist i believe we need to be open minded. I just don't agree when they say Karate- Taekwondo martial artist can't see eye to eye. I think that's just bullshit. It depends on how much ur willing to open ur mind.

Reflecting...

It was during the previous Chinese new year when i my uncle told me... " Dun take part in high risk sports like soccer etc. It's not worth it if you were to get injured. It's not like ur participating in Olympics or wat.. "

Well i don't disagree with wat he said but at the same time i dun entirely agree as well. Injury happens when ur into competitive sports and if our point of playing sports is just for the fun of it den obviously it's not worth it, cuz ur not gonna make a living for it. So, if ur to suffer any major injury dat will effect ur body for ur whole life den it's definately not worth it. I guess the reason why i like to take part in tournaments is for the experience. For me this is the prime age to take part. Obviously u dun get to take part in tournaments when ur older. At the same time i wouldnt wanna look back with regret as if i missed out on sumthing.

It's been already 16 days since the tourney yet my left leg doesnt seem to improve. Today my foot looks like a fracture to me. The size of it increased and it's obvious when u look at both of my feet. I dun really know wat's the thing that caused the fracture, probably cuz while i was walkin up the damn stairs in hostel as i was dragging my left leg up the stairs, i didn't lift my leg high enuff and i kicked the stairs... ouChh.... it really hurts, damn it... and i was pissed.. and it happened two times sum more... arghhhHHhh

Looking back at my condition right now i think i should stop participating in tournaments in the future...sigh...

What's up doc?

Today after class, went for a check up at the medical centre. According to the doc, he thinks it's the swelling of muscle. I kinda agree with him loooking at my own leg. But the thing is i'm just afraid if there's anything wrong with the bone. He told me there's no need to x-ray so i believe him. I was presribed a pain killer , muscle swelling tablet and a cream to apply. Actually i already got the cream but duno y did i get from him again, though the cream given by him has a higher Methyl Salliclate. Not too sure wat's the effect of it though.... Anyway hopefully i will be able to recover in like 2-3 days time. Beginning to feel agitated adi since i felt like i'm missing out so much of sports. Havent been exercising for over a week adi.

Today i was damn stubborn, insist on goin salsa class even though i was kinda limping. It was quite hard doing some of the moves. Nevertheless it's something that i quite enjoy, sort of stress reliever. Was told during the class that our dance teacher met with an acccident, so hopes she gets well soon.

What's wrong with my leg??

It's been 6 days already after the tournament, unfortunately my leg seems to hurt even more. The first few days after the tourney, i didn't remember having problems walking. But for the last three days, it has worsen already. I'm still not sure wat is the reason that is causing the pain. Some ppl say it could be bone crack , or probably muscular ache or wat i think is the problem is the nerves is still recovering. But the strange thing that makes me puzzle is why did i only felt the pain after like 3 days??

Today i went to MMU clinic for consultation but then by the time i reached there, it was already closed, worst it wont be open till monday. It is quite worrying when i think bout it, probably 2moro i might go to some clinic or probably Putrajaya hospital for check up. Hopefully they will x-ray for me as well, just to check up.

It's kinda frusfrating at the moment, can't even go for a jog, play soccer or do any training. Sigh...


~Pray for me~ =<

My ban did not work

Yesterday, i lifted my ban for no real apparent reason. I 'tar-paued' from HB1 even though i've already ban the bloody shop. It's sad that my ban only lasted for like one week. But i guess i hav no other choice, cuz there aren't much option in hostel. Recently i've been eating mostly in HB2, but then if you look at the queue.... it's a turn off. Unless if i'm eating off peak hour then it's fine. But yesterday, i was late and it was during peak hour, i was hungry almost went crazy and eventually bungkus back in HB1...sigh. I think there's ntg that i can do and at most i can only cut down the frequency of eating in HB1... sad but it's true.

Tourney pics

MMU Inter-Dojo Goshin-Ryu Karate-Do Tournament '06

Last few days was really crazy, almost all the committees have to work their ass off. On friday, we had some problems with the sports unit and took a while to settle it. Once it's done we had to transfer 200 pieces of tatami (mats) from STAD , all the way to MPH by using just one trolley. Man , to think that we have to transfer back from MPH to STAD is really..... i wouldn't wanna think bout it just yet. That friday was really tiring. Having need to take the tables and stuffz from FMD, then went to perform demo for CF and then straight carry the stuffz from STAD to MPH , then had to clear MPH hall as well. By the time we finish, it's already midnite.

One day before the tournament...
on saturday nite, we cleaned the hall, as during the day there was an event. Then we setup the tatami, which looks great of cuz.... it's new. Some of them say that the tatami cost is RM 40 K !!!! for the whole set. There were a lot of things to carry , and some last minute preparation. I wanted to finish everything as early as possible cuz the following day half of our committee will be taking part as well. But we still dragged on till midnite..

The tournament day...
It was a tiring day, mentally i think... after all the preparation. Slept at 1am dat nite and woke up 6.40am, took a bath pack sum stuffz and reached MPH at 7.15am. Manage to touch up everything in MPH in time and when all the participants arrived, there were about 200 people in MPH. There were about 130 participants which is a really good response for a tournament. We had to open two tatamis else it would have not finished in time. The tournament started off with the Individual Kata for Female and Male. Then they have the female below 50kg. Right after that was my category , the 55kg kumite male. It's really one heck of a category, with the absolute most people in the category, 40 over people, that's quite insane. I can tell you that even the national level tournament doesn't have this much people in one category. There was so many people that it had to be dividied into 4 groups A , B, C and D. I was in Group A so i was the first few fighters. I can't really remember my first opponent, but he was those young guys who are not so good, and just try to hit only. Since it was the first match of the day, was still kinda rusty and there were moments when we clashed, and it did affected my left leg. But i guess there weren't much prob winning.

My next fight was with a indian guy, quite tricky 1, since he's as tall as me and having watched him during the first round, i already know wat to expect. He had those long kicks , similar to mine only slower. But the thing that surprises me is that the referee gave point to him , even tho i felt that he's kick hit my elbow instead of my back. It did shocked me cuz there were moments when i was leading with one point and he got he's kick and all of the sudden he was the one leading with one point. There were two times i was fouled, cuz he punched my face. Unfortunately, it seems there were no points awarded for me. Nevertheless when i was trailing i did wat i have to do to put myself back into the game. I did fear the worst tho, fear of being knocked out so early in the tournament. Luckily i managed to go thru. I do have some phobia fighting indians. Haha i guess fear is not a factor anymore....lolz

My 3rd fight was a walk-over really. I wish i could had fought like that through-out the tournament. I had two sanbons~!! I think there weren't anyone with sanbons in the tournament at all. That i'm sure... was an eye opener for all the fighters in my category. I was relatively unknown to them. I guess after that i did send shivers to them. Definition of sanbons- kick to the head with good control. The kick only touches the head, won't cause any injuries at all. That's harder to be done rather than just wacking the head. i did two sanbons so i had 3 points for each. I lost count with the match, i think i won like 9-0 or sumthing like dat. I was cruising, so i just try to calm down and conserve my enery.

Quater-finals
My opponent for quarter-finals was a familiar guy. I had fought with him once during a tournament in Johor and i've beaten him before. I have trained with him before as well in seremban. So, i was quite confident i can beat him again. The match started off with me scoring from my ever reliable kick. I was just trying to control the match , when i was caught off-guard when he drew level. But i did wat i had to do and cari makan from my kicks again as usual. It was really funny when people outside of the ring , probably he's team manager was kept shouting to him , to watch out for my kicks, but it's really unstoppable , i can tell u that especially if i change my stance.. north paw..lolz..Anyway i made it to the semifinals with bronze in my hand at the very least, so it's time for the next round.

Semi Finals
My opponent for this round is a relatively unknown fellow. Before the match, we sat opposite directions and we did had some eye contacts, not those which eye contact which u use when u see lenglui, it's more to the 1 that says i'm gonna destroy u.... lolz..just kidding. I didn't watch him in the early rounds, so i haf no idea how good is he or whether he's more into punching or kicking. Nevertheless i started off cautiously, didnt take much risk. All i can remember is i cari makan from my ever reliable kick. These people know that i'm gonna kick but there's ntg that they can do, it'll just hit u. I did score from punch as well i think. Can't really remember well but i think i won the match 3-0, sumthing like dat.

Finals
My opponent for the finals, seen him before, met him before of course, he's one of the trainer in Seremban. He was the only one who managed to counter my kicks, partly cuz he have a good and solid punch. I was quite frusfrated during the match, cuz he was just waiting for me. I took the risk to kick and once you kick , you're alwiz vulnerable and i got countered by he's punch. There was ntg much that i can do, and it was really frusfrating. I fought with a guy who is much more experienced then me. It was a sad ending.... had to settle for silver.......

That was the individiul event, next was the team kumite. Our team, MMU A consist of Shyuan, Maza, Jessica, CD and me. I think definately the favourites for the team event. We were strong in every department. We did not have problem cruising in to the finals, and i didn't need to fight as well since we already won 3-0 during the first 2 rounds. Being the 5th fighter it would b irrelevant for me to fight. During the finals for the event, the atmosphere was great, just the way i wanted, with mmu supporting each of our fighters. The first fighter Shyuan, did not have any problem winning their first match. So is Jessica who collected our 2nd point. We only need one more point to win but our 3rd fighter lost. So at this point is 2-1. Our fourth fighter was Maza, having lost to her opponent during the individual event, i had a feeling that she might lose again, and from that moment i had a feeling that it's gonna be my day. It was 2-2 and i needed to win. My opponent was the quy that lost to me in the quarter finals. The match started off cautiously, i was more to finding an opening. It was definately the best atmosphere of the day with MMU guys chanting my name. Damn, it makes me really hyped up for it. The one that really got me fired up during the fight was my buddy Eng yoong shouting, " EJ i trust your kick". Right after that i delivered one sweet kick and scored and it was 2-0 at that point. I knew my opponent was desperate for points so i was just on the defensive side, just moving around and making sure i've cover my areas. As soon as the referee stopped the match, we were in celebration mood.. everyone was congratulating me and i was congratulating my teamates as well. It was a great feeling man, definately one of the best i had in MMU. I love team spirits.. So at least i had my gold for the day and it did cheer me up a bit, after just managing a silver for the individual event. After that we had a tea break and i told my fren that i heard he's shout, " EJ i trust your kick" and we laughed bout it. Nevertheless it did inspired me. Since last week i've been getting praises bout my kicks, and i had no doubt that i had one of the best kicks in the tournament if not the best. I guess my hard work did pay off, all the ankle weights to class...lolz I'm actually surprised that i didnt score as many points with my punch as i should cuz i think my punch are quite ok. That is something that i have to look into.

The closing ceremony wraps up the day with me giving a speech and my master as well. Then we had the prize giving ceremony and after that it was just bout cleaning up everything. There were good news from the stalls as well, when our sales were brilliant, managed to sold off all the t-shirts including the display t-shirt as well, lol. There were a lot of left-overs for dunkin donuts as well and we ate for free including some can drinks. It was fun when we had a short get-together with all the mmu guys. It's sort of like a team bonding session. It's good~

Towards the nite, i was dwelling on my pain. Feeling it already , both my legs are sort of kong adi... I'm not sure if i can make it for the salsa class, but i'll try my best for sure.

3 more days to go..

Today was quite a hectic day also, although in the beginning of the day, everything was sort of plain sailing. Towards the evening i had my taekwondo class as usual, den had my dinner . After that was all bout training , and carried some of the refreshments needed for this sunday's tourney. After doing some light training i felt ok, cuz previously my hand is injured. Actually i can still feel some discomfort on my right arm, but i think it's not that bad. Still have time to recover for this sunday. I was quite happy with my performance in training, i think i'm quite ready adi for the tourney this sunday.

After the training at bout 10pm, did some warm up for nunchaku cuz we were asked to do demo rehearsal for college festival. There was quite a delay and we had to wait till 11pm , den oni we can do our demo. Our demo is right after capoeira's demo. At first i was a bit worried, that we might not have the intensity like wat capoeira did. Another thing is they had more people doing demo, so it might not be as 'hot' as their performance. Anyway, throughout the rehearsal there were quite a number of people and there were a lot of familiar faces. But i somehow was still a lil bit nervous. I did do some mistakes that i don't normally do, though i think i manage to cover up properly. I think i made the right choice of choosing to do a weapon demo cuz it is not as common and i thought people who have never really seen weapon demo will find it quite interesting. Anyway, at the end of the day, i was kinda relieved when my frens who was watching and those from other clubs like Aikkido , Wushu, they told me it was a good demo and worth the wait. I really appreciate their comments and it was really better than i thought. I'm grateful for the support i received and hopefully this will spur me to perform better for the real demo tomorrow. I'm looking forward for it.

" If only she was there to watch me perform....... "

Dun wanna eat in hb1 adi..

Damn, i'm so pissed off... i think i shouldn't ban that shop forever. The left shop in HB1. Went to bungkus just now and the bugger charge me RM 3.30 , which is not the problem. I gave him RM 50 and he gave back RM 47. Then he asked me if i have 30 cents, which i don't. I rarely carry coins anyway. Then wat pissed me off most, is he said next time u come u pay 30 cents.. I was like wtf??? I juz walked off and ignored the bugger...

Those are one hell of a dumb ppl do business.. He doesnt have the bloody change and he told me to pay next time? Is he stupid or wat? Some more ppl like me used to eat there regularly. This is like taking advantage of regular customer. I'm gonna ban the bloody shop already FOR GOOD~!.